These past weeks have been really good for me.
I’ve written in the past about the three week mark, where I’ve noticed many clients coming in full steam and then giving up around three weeks.
Three weeks is where I am in my effort to shed my divorce pounds. It’s frustrating and excruciating. I was really, really hungry earlier this week.
And the results are not all that visible. The best thing is that I have my strength back in the gym–it was terrifying to lose and when I began I was really worried that I wouldn’t be able to get it back–after all I have passed the magic age of 50 (and got an AARP card in the mail!) and by all accounts I am way past my prime. But anyway, so I don’t ramble too far, it’s clear I am going to be just as strong as I was. (I so enjoy the faces of the bodybuilders when they see me deadlifting 150 pounds!)
That’s given me some comfort, but I’m still not fitting into my clothes. And the scale has moved one lousy pound. (I remind myself–the scale does not reflect what’s really happening!)
Now’s the time when I am tested. It’s really a question of faith, belief in something I can’t see but I know it’s there. The second time around, for me, it’s easier, because I know what works. The first time was really hard because I didn’t know what, exactly, was going to work, and what the result was really going to be. Healthier, sure, but what I would LOOK like, and FEEL like, which was an amazing surprise.
Now I remember how tough it is, which I had really forgotten, kind of like labor pains are forgotten when you have a cute toddler and you are thinking of having a second.
But it’s out of this discomfort that great things are born. When we make a decision to change in anything, whether physical, mental, emotional, or our circumstances, there is a time between the deciding and the accomplishment which can be painful if we view it the wrong way. Building a business, building a good relationship, whatever is worth something takes time and it takes commitment.
I’m learning to not be in so much pain in these in-between places. To put one foot in front of the other, to enjoy the process instead of just being fixed on the destination. There’s grace in it, if we choose to see it, and we can be happy that we are a little better today then we were yesterday. To know that is real, and true, and important, is the test.
Today, I’m happy that I am learning again just how hard the body transformation time is. I’m happy that I am stronger and more coordinated than just a few weeks ago. I’m happy that my body has built back some of the muscle I lost and that I am laying the foundation for my total recovery. I’m happy my knees don’t hurt despite the fact that they both have arthritis. And I am so grateful that I am able to make this journey once again in health and greater peace of mind.
And if I can stay in that place, one of gratitude, I know that it will pay off.
And just so you know, here’s what I’m doing:
2 or three weightlifting sessions at the gym
walking the dogs a minimum of 20 minutes per day
daily stretching and foam rolling
one hike a week minimum
1400/calories a day (I’ll be posting on diet next week)
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